Just matter of time...

One fine day I was in love
One fine day I was in peace
One fine day I was satisfied
One fine day I was complete

Everywhere it was green
With sweet aroma of flowers
Azure sky covering me
As I was in heaven

Every dream was becoming true
Every bit of life was full of joy
As if there will never be autumn
When leaves will have to fall

Pain which was never discarded
But it was always presumed to be tractable
That autumn took my happiness away
With all greenery I was engrossed in

Like askew knife; it chiseled my heart
I try to appease pain,
And it stabs in more with arid reality
I let the blood flow violently
With my own tears.
Look at those red shades on my body
As if that blood is not mine.

Look at the irony of life
Who stabs is your savior
Look at irony of destiny
Who gives you pain is your lover

But I run in his embrace again
I can not live without him
I love him so deep that
Pain appeases only when I am with him
It’s “we” that matters, it’s love that counts
Nothing else matters when we are together

I smile back at that autumn now,
Say it’s matter of time
I can shake hand with him now and then,
Because every time spring will be on it’s way again

Why people are like that??

Some people irritate me up to death. And I have to bear them. Why are they trying to be so much socially active??? Every one has own life and every one has right to live it as one wants to. I can understand suggestions those are out of care for friend. But that’s not enough for these people. They want to change all according to them; according to they wish us to be. How cheap, immature is that. Why they don’t let others to live their own life peacefully??? I have come across many. Not single. And I wonder how I stand them! They are so irritating. They insult you; say such things in every second sentence that you will never ever wonder some one can say. And I stand helpless. May be I think it’s even cheap and immature to answer them, or I just keep wondering how people can interfere so much in others lives though they don’t even have any right and any idea of what your facing, and what you want from life. Sick minds, rather immature minds. Or sick me! Who is yet to find way out of this puzzle, how to tackle with those who enter you life, your problems without your permission. Sometimes I get so much angry that I feel like slapping them or through them out of my life. But I never did that. Only reason I have social life. I can’t live without them because they are all around. And then I feel like laughing on my own situation. Helpless me. Poor me. Wretched, looking for shoulder to relax, and always left disappointed. Why? Why people are like this? Or may be I am insane. Who has more expectations from all relationships, more than they can afford. But in any of these cases, I am left irritated to death. Well hope I find solution to this soon. Because I hardly see any solution to change people’s minds and even my nature.

Why pain is more powerful?

Don’t know why, but these days I find myself incapable of writing. I sit with pen in my hand but nothing comes out of my mind, as if it is closed or over satisfied. Why pain is always powerful? At least it gives birth to all beautiful creations, romanticism. Have you ever seen some one deeply in love and writing poems for his love? No. but I have always seen those writing immensely touching pieces those who are heart broken. Satisfaction, amenities close doors to your soul?! You stop communicating to yourself.
Do all comforts, satisfactions make us less human being? Does love make your feelings go blunt? Your senses go on closing?? Sense of security, secured future, secures life, close paths to the mind. Poverty speaks but comforts don’t. Helplessness speaks but power doesn’t. Why pain is so powerful? More beautiful, sacred, which always speaks truth, and language of beauty?Is that pain which keeps you alive, more sensitive? I don’t’ know. But may be I wonder the day I wake up with no pain, no mayhems in mind, will be the most painful day of my life.

Life is strange!

Life behaves very strange sometimes, no !, to be precise most of times.
You do exactly opposite to what you decide You wake up, decide something very determinately to yourself. But you just fail to follow it! You are not able to follow it, the very same thing you decided to yourself! Very strange.
Most of times I get angry with my friends, and decide, no! I am doing no more compromises. No more communication only so that no battles. But to my surprise I talk to the very same person at length! Some times I have shared very dear things of mine as well. I never understood this same as most of things, why do they happen??! .And this doesn’t happen just once, twice it happens repeatedly and with same person. you decide not to go after a person asking,why,when,how, and many ‘wh’ questions. but you finally end up doing that and more than you have ever done. You decide not to think about specific topic,not to think about specific person, but you actually end up doing all of that. why this happens on fist place and if I know I am not going to follow what I decide then why do I determine so! Not single, twice but number of times!
So rather than cursing myself I have reached to very suitable conclusion,. life is strange!
And only thing I can do is enjoy it J

That Same Mayhem

The magic of love

Always remains same

Deep from your heart u feel it

N deep inside heart it mayhems

The day arises with the thought,

Carrying his footprints in your mind

You can’t go back,

And you’re not able to make a day

He comes like soft breeze

But just in your thoughts

Sooths you, makes you smile

But he is just in your breath

You hold his hand

He takes u along

And you leave everything

As to him only u belong

Endless roads you walk down

And evadible greenery

You hold him closer

And feel the cozy hug

He is never leaving you

You know it for sure

The road becomes darker

But trust is pure

In one misty down

You find yourself alone

At the end of road,

With palms wet in dew

But the touch is enough

The trust is life now

You smile at old days

And get back to your life some how

But still he is there

Deep in your thoughts

Inside your hear

With that same mayhem

LIFE

You get obsessed with things..

Call it like fascination

Life after some thing

And I m after else

Can’t bear that sunshine

Can’t stand darkness

Happiness creates panting heart

Sadness welcomes bad dreams

Mindset, and mind game

Pulls your life in different directions

Soul infringes, hurts

But you go on

Never care for what will happen

But in the search of your destiny

Which you write for your own

Like to run after that mirage

With broken hearts

And broken verses

But you never give up

That shining happiness that probably is not achievable

Get out of the circle

You will never reach the end

Will wait till eternity

With soaked soul and shining will

The way to live life

Is art to find out

Grab the moment

And never depart out

Live in moments and not in permanence

Hold it close to you

Life will be yours

i m still to find why it happens

Human kind n human mind is something that is unpredictable. You love your parents, friends, siblings; you sometimes love everything around you. But sometimes you r just not satisfied. The feeling of incompleteness. Incomplete without some one. As your counterpart is missing. You then cant stand good things happening to even your dear ones. The rage of jealousy fills the body. And u lose control for moment. Then it doesn’t matter the person is your own sister, brother or your dearest fried. You find it hard to accept the way it is. ‘Why not me??’..And you are not able to find answer. It becomes crucial when it knocks your own doors. Your dear friend or your dear sister she is the one whom u envy. Yes you do though for minute. But you do. Thast human nature and human kind. seeking love everywhere around. a lil love offers allures him. And then they envy who has more share of it than them.Thats human blood. The unstoppable chains of restlessness,lil frustration for yourself, and of course the envious feeling.lil..But certainly there. Life offers more than you expect, but you expect it when you wish it.dont know how many lives have been drawn by this. How many have changed their attitude towards life by this. But the inevitable importance is unrecognized.untold, unknown. Every night has down. new hope. You rise. Face sun with full breath start new day but then again you meet another dear sister or friend. And then you forget to laugh at yourself.